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This is where you stick random tidbits of information about yourself.
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Thursday, January 09, 2003
BobTheDecoyFish: G'morning
BobTheDecoyFish: Still not sleeping well?
SKYHUNTER85: no
BobTheDecoyFish: Sorry
SKYHUNTER85: i got very sick today (or yesterday)....food poisoning
SKYHUNTER85: i was very sick
SKYHUNTER85: slept a lot
SKYHUNTER85: am feeling better now. abd area still sore
BobTheDecoyFish: Oh man. I'm sorry to hear that
BobTheDecoyFish: I bet
BobTheDecoyFish: I'm glad you're doing better
SKYHUNTER85: i think i lost like 5 lbs i threw up so much
BobTheDecoyFish: gah
SKYHUNTER85: yeah
BobTheDecoyFish: You don't need to be los weight. :\
BobTheDecoyFish: losing
SKYHUNTER85: my teeth are sore too for some reason
BobTheDecoyFish: gah
BobTheDecoyFish: Are your eyes sore?
BobTheDecoyFish: You can get black eyes from throwing up too much
SKYHUNTER85: no
BobTheDecoyFish: I have a msall bit of good news. Wanna hear?
SKYHUNTER85: yeah
BobTheDecoyFish: I will be working on a website for a friend-- he's doing it for a friend who sells candles... They are getting to be big, and supposedly, now we have to hurry with the web, 'cause the candles will be shown on Oprah in February.
SKYHUNTER85: that is cool
BobTheDecoyFish: Which means my web site could be viewed by millions of bored women everywhere!
BobTheDecoyFish: I'm getting $1000 out of the deal,with an option for another $500 web site (which I will take)
SKYHUNTER85: cool. good for you
BobTheDecoyFish: :)
BobTheDecoyFish: And I hope to get the $ for the first magazine (which you never saw, did you?) today or tomorrow... $1700, which I need desperately
BobTheDecoyFish: So, what kind of dogs do you guys want to adopt?
SKYHUNTER85: australian shepherd and toy fox terrier
BobTheDecoyFish: wow cool
SKYHUNTER85: toy fox terriers are SO ADORABLE!!
BobTheDecoyFish: i bet!
BobTheDecoyFish: When ya getting them?
SKYHUNTER85: as soon as we find them
BobTheDecoyFish: lol ok
BobTheDecoyFish: Hey, I want you to know-- really and truly and honestly-- that I want you and John to be happy. And I don't want you thinking any more that I mind hearing about a part of your life for any reason.
BobTheDecoyFish: :)
SKYHUNTER85: thank you
SKYHUNTER85: you always say the sweetest things
SKYHUNTER85: you were discussed here last night
BobTheDecoyFish: oh?
SKYHUNTER85: yes. it was a part of mine and tennille's "why do we always go for the guy/girl we know will treat us worst" discussion.
BobTheDecoyFish: oh
BobTheDecoyFish: care to elaborate?
SKYHUNTER85: you, of course, are a part of a group that said person knows is good for him/her. you would treat me very well, never put me through any shit, and probably make me very happy.
BobTheDecoyFish: all true.
SKYHUNTER85: but what do i do? choose the person that will put me through the most confusion, pain, and anguish. i always do that. tennille was saying she does as well.
BobTheDecoyFish: I think a lot of use do.
BobTheDecoyFish: I don't know why.
BobTheDecoyFish: I never felt that way when you and I were talking, although I did go through a fair amount of pain when all was said and done.
SKYHUNTER85: i am sorry
BobTheDecoyFish: No no no
SKYHUNTER85: i never meant to hurt you
BobTheDecoyFish: I wasn't looking for an apology. Sorry. I didn't mean it that way
BobTheDecoyFish: I didn't think you meant to hurt me.
BobTheDecoyFish: It just happened...
BobTheDecoyFish: Something neither of us meant.
BobTheDecoyFish: In the end, there just wasn't enough... spark...
BobTheDecoyFish: And that happens.
SKYHUNTER85: yeah, i guess
BobTheDecoyFish: haha
SKYHUNTER85: you were right about something you said to me yesterday though
BobTheDecoyFish: what?
SKYHUNTER85: you said you were giving me a kind of attention you thought i wasn't getting anywhere else. then you said you realized you were wrong when you read that letter from john
SKYHUNTER85: you were right the entire time
BobTheDecoyFish: what do you mean, eactly?
SKYHUNTER85: i did enjoy the attention you gave because i wasn't getting it from anyone else
BobTheDecoyFish: yeah. I know.
BobTheDecoyFish: But that's okay. I gave it freely.
BobTheDecoyFish: You deserved it.
SKYHUNTER85: thank you
BobTheDecoyFish: I realized, however, that John was CAPABLE of it if he'd just realize where is priorities should be. The whole time, I thought he was just an ass... but then I realized he wasn't-- he just was an ass some times.
SKYHUNTER85: you are sweet
BobTheDecoyFish: thanks.
SKYHUNTER85: yes. the only difficult part is deciding if sometimes is worth it
BobTheDecoyFish: that's true.
BobTheDecoyFish: that's life, though, I guess. Deciding if any particular thing is worth it.
SKYHUNTER85: i dunno. i will tell you something. please don't think me slutty or something for this, okay?
BobTheDecoyFish: okay
SKYHUNTER85: i have several guy friends that, like you, would treat me very well if i were with them. hell, one of them came over today to help take care of me while i was sick
BobTheDecoyFish: ok
SKYHUNTER85: they all want to be with me, but i had rather be with john--the dumbass boy the is mean to me and hurts me and is sometimes very sweet.
BobTheDecoyFish: Why would that make you slutty?
SKYHUNTER85: why is that? why can't i like someone that i know will treat me well and do me right?
BobTheDecoyFish: Well... let me ask you this...
BobTheDecoyFish: These guys... Ar eyou physically attracted to them>
BobTheDecoyFish: ?
SKYHUNTER85: yes, but i can't do anything with any of them b/c of john
BobTheDecoyFish: Well... that's what love does. And you love John. I don't know if this is accurate, but I'd say he came along in your life, was sweet, was attractive, and was everything you thought someone should be, and you fell in love... and now you'r ein love, and that's all there is to it.
SKYHUNTER85: i wish i knew what he were really like before i feel in love with him so that maybe i could have prevented it. hahaha
BobTheDecoyFish: yeah... but love doesn't happen that way. If everything you and I went through was not enough to overshadow that, I don't know what is. Love is love, and it makes no excuses.
SKYHUNTER85: yeah, yeah. unfortunately, i know
BobTheDecoyFish: i know you know.
BobTheDecoyFish: It will take you to decide you don't want to be with John. And you will ALWAYS have feelings for him. Always. Just like you will for everyone you've loved. But it will take you to decide to move past them.
BobTheDecoyFish: If indeed, that's what you really want.
BobTheDecoyFish: But-- just because you're in love-- that doesn't mean it's right. So please be sure you are willing and really, really WANT to go through the bad stuff, to be there for the good stuff.
BobTheDecoyFish: I'm gonna hate seeing you go through pain when the good doesn't outweigh it. Like I just said-- I was in love with you and a part of me will always love you. And any pain you feel, I will feel, too. Not that I'm trying to make this selfish... I'm just saying I'll hate to see you go through too much pain.
SKYHUNTER85: again, thanks
BobTheDecoyFish: you're welcome
BobTheDecoyFish: You're my friend. And I'm very glad we're talking again.
SKYHUNTER85: i know he loves me. i just wish he would show me more.
BobTheDecoyFish: yeah. I know he does, too.
BobTheDecoyFish: and I wish he would, too.
BobTheDecoyFish: But if he's quit using, then maybe his priorities wille ven out.
BobTheDecoyFish: will even
8:23 AM
Monday, January 06, 2003
It's fun to make new friends that make you feel good about you.
N: I have to go downstairs for a minute. Say something nice to me while I 'm gone.
N: :)
M: Lol, Well I do think a cute friend is worth more than the money. Look I met you.
N: i haven't left yet, but that is really sweet. :)
N: NOW I'm going downstairs
M: lol
M: Well, I think you are sweet too. You care about your friends and about how they feel, often more than you should. But you are a great friend and will always be a great friend, if not more, to me
M: Wow. Now that was REALLY sweet. Thank you.
4:50 PM
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